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"We are all on a path. My path took me down the hole of confusion and despair and horror and to love and life: Nature, Truth, Wonder, Beauty and Courage! I know not what is next, but I am grateful for the time on this earth, my friends, my family and those who loved me." —Andrew Blash Read the rest of the story...

Andrew Blash

 

ablashWhat I call health is that we are reaching for otherness, and health in all measures.

I think that in my life, that in all that has happened, I could not have weathered, if I had not learned mediation and logic as physical pursuits!

I do say:

Mind,
Body,
Heart,
Spirit

All these for me, have been a great path and an endless process of unfolding: I am still learning, too! Always well be!

In all this grandness of the above, there are the hard facts of economics, stigma, and my story that lingers with others. You all know what I mean, for example, your going a date or out to meet knew people and they say:

"So what did you do from this time to that time, and how do you make a living!"

Developing the self (and/or social worlds) with the label and holes in our back-ground is hard. I get rebuked all the time, outright social distain and worse. In that, getting better is having more bark around the tree, and yet more openness to the world wisely!

Boundaries, being able to deal with the good the bad and the ugly!

For example:

I was sitting in a cafe - homeless and ruffed up from the back country, I was thinking of boundaries, a man sat down next to me and said:

" I want to fucking know why you have a computer, when you are living out of  a back-pack!? Are you a fucking SSI [Supplemental Security Income] bum! I am I reading you write!?"

I said, " Is there a fucking question! What is the fucking question pal!? This is not your cafe, nor is my social world up for you to judge!?"

So self defense, and I know everyone out there knows well the stigma and the endless looks and worse! For example, I landed a Volunteer Position and I was their best till it became clear I was on SSI [Supplemental Security Income] and I was run out of town for it. Oh, well, one more lesson- never ever disclose at first or ever!

So again: Mind, Body, Heart, Spirit, Nature, Culture, Social Learning and the Social Intellect- all need to be advanced. I myself realize at my age, I stand out like a Kangaroo in a Dinner Jacket- always have and will so I am learning better and better to measure my words, my manners and my positions and ability to stand my ground!

We are all on a path. My path took me down the hole of confusion and despair and horror and to love and life: Nature, Truth, Wonder, Beauty and Courage!

I know not what is next, but I am grateful for the time on this earth, my friends, my family and those who loved me.

I say to all: live as you see it, live to find your voice!

Live - for now I think of the 12 years at sea and the song:

 

I tossed a poem to the sea
that took with it my questions and my voice
Like a slow ship it got lost in the spray

I asked it not to return
without having seen the open sea
and in dreams telling me of its visions.

Even if it didn't return
I would know if it arrived.

Travel the whole life
on the blue calm or foundering in storms
little matters the way if some port awaits

I waited so long for the message
that I forgot to return to the sea
and thus I lost the poem
I cried to the heavens all my rancor
I finally found it written in the sand
like a prayer

The sea beat in my veins
and set my heart free

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sW65oduoe-U

 

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